but your a japanese-wannabe right? let me guess you love Asian women and you currently have a Japanese wife or girlfriend?
You wish you could fully integrate into Japanese society and not be looked upon as a foreigner. But that will never happen because Japan is very xenophobic. I'm going to get downvoted, but for everyone who has lived in Japan and is not Japanese knows what I'm talking about and knows it's true
You got my downvote for posting something that doesn't need to be posted, whether true or not. You obviously knew that since you created an account just for that purpose - so what does it matter? Why bother to begin with?
1) Self thought from copy pasting code and changing out parts until it works, moved on to books later. What was always most important for me was to have a goal in mind, something that you build towards or really want to accomplish, with brute force and excessive Googling if necessary.
2. Read my first programming book when I was 15, on ASP of all things but I had been learning HTML on my own prior to that, following tutorials online. My school also offered a short course on Turbo Pascal.
3. Got my first job as a Flash programmer when I was 18 and I'm soon turning 27, employed as a Full Stack Developer (don't hate) without having a CS degree. I do have a bachelors degree in Media but it's essentially worthless and has nothing to do with my work.
Having been in a similar situation as Notch, also ending in a very similar way, all advice I can give is to make the best of the time you have and don't waste it on contempt and hate. I wish that I had been able to have a more understanding attitude than I did.
What if the text communication became available after ~1 minute? It would take some of the frustration away if you could instruct someone after a while (or call him names).