I intend this as a nudge for you to introspect, not as a criticism. I've shared your perspective before, and have found much more satisfaction in looking at my own behavior to understand what of my experiences were true facts, and what were stories that I told myself.
For me, the reality was that my ego needed the boost from my perceived superiority. I had little else in my life that I Was proud of. Looking back, I understand how my behavior was an expression of a great deal of talent plus insecurity.
I've spent a lot of time working on myself, and my career and life satisfaction are significantly higher because of it.
I probably should have mentioned somewhere, I'm not that talented. I've worked enough places to know I'm just average. My apparent special ability is in the long hours department. If I commit to doing something, it's getting done, to a fault. I've been this way since my teens, staying up for days without even realizing it while figuring something out.
For me, the reality was that my ego needed the boost from my perceived superiority. I had little else in my life that I Was proud of. Looking back, I understand how my behavior was an expression of a great deal of talent plus insecurity.
I've spent a lot of time working on myself, and my career and life satisfaction are significantly higher because of it.